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you can ask me how i am

and i'll give you the response you want,

brief and smiling with my teeth.

but one of these days i'm going to grab your skinny shoulders and say,

"hey, i'm really fucking good. just ask olivia-jane, because she knows. you can ask matt, because when we're both spinning too fast we tell the other to stop. matt sings us funny songs and we laugh, and then he sings us heartbreak songs and we fall silent and look around and realize we love each other very much, and meanwhile matt's fingers don't stop moving. matt calls me and we are lemon yellow in anticipation and purple with hesitation and we talk about our crushes until the drowsy warm night nearly crushes me."

then i'll tell you about this boy i like

but we can save that for another time if you want.

i'll tell you about all these people i've fallen in love with,

the ones who love me, and though it would be rather

tedious to tell you their names, i will:

i am bright blue and

i owe nothing to you